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In the Beginning? Center on The Word.

Matterofprayer: A Year of Everyday Prayers – Wednesday, September 30, 2015

WORD John 1-1

In the Beginning? Center on The Word.

The last day of September. My last day of Centering Prayer. My word of the day, my Name of God for today is Word. (As in, “The Word,” from the Gospel of John, chapter 1.)

I have always been strongly, deeply moved by this Name of God. (Or, preincarnate Name of the Son.) As I focused on The Word, John 1:1 kept running through my head.” In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God.”

Surprisingly, I didn’t find myself focusing on the Logos, on the Greek word for The Word. Instead, I found myself centering on “the beginning” and then on before the beginning. What came before the beginning? What was here? (Or, there? Or, anywhere?)

I know, God was present before anything was created. And, I tend to gravitate towards images and imagery as well as sound. I thought of The Word being a spoken Word. And then, since I was contemplating “the beginning,” lo and behold! C.S. Lewis’s book The Magician’s Nephew popped into my head again, and the spoken Word morphed into Aslan singing the world containing Narnia into being!

How marvelous, actually seeing (in my mind’s eye, that is) the Creator of the heavens and the earth at work, creating the wonders and the glory of the worlds, and the solar systems, and the galaxies. Awe-inspiring does not even touch this.

And, that was what I centered on, today.

However, I am torn about finishing my month of Centering Prayer. Yes, relieved, since praying in this meditative way every day for a month was a huge stretch for me! (I am afraid I am not very good at this meditative style of prayer.) But, also partly unfulfilled. Or something. I am afraid I did not center or focus very well this month, at all. On a scale of 1 to 10, with 1 being awful and 10 being stellar, I have the definite sense that I didn’t get much above a 3 on most days in September.

God, I’m sorry. I know You understand, but I’m still sorry. At least I was faithful, and I earnestly tried. I really did. And, thank You, Lord, for loving me anyhow, and listening to me as I pray. No matter what method I use or how I come before You.

@chaplaineliza

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Focus on My Living Redeemer

Matterofprayer: A Year of Everyday Prayers – Monday, September 21, 2015

Job 19-25 I know my redeemer

Focus on My Living Redeemer

I’m choosing a Name of God found in the Bible, my word of the day. My Name of God for today is Redeemer. So, I tried to center today on this Name. “Tried” being the operative word.

I love the Name of God I chose. The whole concept of Redeemer seems super-human, superhero. Larger than life. And, such an interesting place to find this Name of God. The book of Job, chapter 19 verse 25.

As I centered and focused on this Name, I didn’t have too much difficulty. But then, I started having random, interfering thoughts tromp through my head. And I mean, tromp! Not just tiptoe. I got upset at several thoughts. (The thoughts were particularly awkward and irritating, dredging up a situation from the past I thought was over with and done! Apparently, not.)

After sending up a quick pleading prayer, I was able to get back to my centering. For a little bit, anyway. Then, my questing mind started in. I know what my 21st century concept of a Redeemer is. What was the concept of a “Redeemer” at the time the book of Job was written? This is probably the earliest book written. Their religious and theological understandings must have been fairly rudimentary, compared to the Jews at the time of the first century of the Common Era. Much less to religious and theological thought today.

And, those were just a few of the random thoughts that paraded through my head, interrupting the focusing, the centering that I was supposed to be doing.

Words, words, words! Dear Lord, I am sorry I have so much difficulty centering on a word. Resting in You. This meditative prayer is such a challenge. Yet, I persevere. Thank You, God, for such a meaningful word, such a Name of God as Redeemer.

@chaplaineliza

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